while in the pursuit of something that is either unpursuable or just doesn't exist at all, i have completely forgotten about the 4 people who enjoy reading the pureness of my warmly compressed, perfectly EQ'd, superbly de-essed and mastered thoughts. but that was a lie, because how could i ever forget you perfect people? (note: the only perfect people in this world are those who read this nonsense). i sleep soundly at night knowing that everything in the champloo of my mind can be expressed freely here, without being 'formspringed or honesty-boxed,' and i rely on the constant motivation i get from die-hard readers to take the time to continue expressing and sharing and doing all those other emotional things that would otherwise only present themselves in films with a title along the lines of "I'm Really Good Looking and So Are You, So Let's Pretend We're In Love So That We Can Win The Attention of Jr. High Girls and Try To Convince Everyone Else That The World Can Only Be Perfect In Cinema." i hope you get the idea, cas i sure as shit don't...
i don't like to talk specifically about what it is i do. not because i'd have to kill you if i did, but i'd rather be all metaphorical and symbolic because it makes it easier for common people to relate to everything. and by "common people" i just mean everyone, including myself. but you ever notice that the best songs or ideas or movies or concepts are the ones that you can relate to? and the hardest things to relate to are the one's that are just all "I Do This and I Do That, This Happened to Me and It Will Never Happen To You Because I'm So Fucking Special and Unique That No One Could Ever Possibly Be In The Same Situation As I Am." people need to realize how much they have in common with everyone else. it would make for easier relationships and more positive human connection. so i try to refrain from gettin' all up in yo face bein' like YO I CREATE FIRE IN THE LAB EVERYDAY, cas no one (not even myself) would understand that. so you won't catch me name dropping or dick riding, shoutin' out for everyone to hear or blasting the facebook newsfeed with everything i do. but you'll get it all in a much easier to understand package right here. something you can read and be like "oh fo sho my man, i feel you. i totally see where you at, and i wish you knew how much i can relate to you." then you'll wanna come back and you'll want me to write more and more, because it's almost like i'm taking your thoughts and expressing them for you, cas trust me, i know how you feel...dog.
but on the ecstatic tip...
i think marriage will soon be a thing of the past. it won't be replaced by anything, and i'm not sure what will become of those people who have felt someone staring into their souls while they gaze into each other's eyes, but... i mean that's cool and all, but just because you can feel someone looking at your soul, doesn't mean you need to spend a bunch of money and make it legal and put a ring on and call it a day. i'm down with the whole idea that the world momentarily stops when you look at someone you love, but isn't that enough? the tax benefits can't really be all that great, and apparently 50% of all marriages already end in divorce, so like, c'mon people. i can't fully get into this idea yet, just cas i haven't pondered an alternative. yes, i think things would get somewhat hectic if marriage didn't exist. but i also think things get even more hectic because of marriage. we're not bringing it back to the 70's hippie love and we're not gonna allow people to have a wife and then like 10 legal consorts like the Japanese used to do. but like, love is so universal and encompasses everyone and everything, so i find it extremely difficult to pick out one single person out of millions and be like "for the rest of my life, i will be with you." i know all the emotional teenagers can relate to this, they act like their lives are ruined because their boyfriend or girlfriend just broke up with them. but people are gonna get the wrong idea i think, i am in favor of all relationships. professional, blood-realted, loving, paid for, paid from, long-lasting, short and sweet, ending in disaster, being endless all together, the one you have with that one big black guy, international, across the street, over the phone, thru the internet, all your asian friends, the ones with the rich, the ones with the poor, the mailman, the UPS guy, the fictional movie characters, the chick who cuts your hair, the guy that you wished remembered your name and order every time you walked into starbucks, and everyone else in between...it is important to have people who you are close to, people you can talk to or those you just enjoy being around. whether its intimate or affectionate or not, but as R. Kelly says "I Don't See Nothin' Wrong With A Little Bump 'n' Grind." so don't be afraid to have those kinds of people around, they have a lot more in common with you than you think. but again, there are so many people like that who will present themselves to you throughout your whole life. how could you possibly just pick one? i know when you get married it doesn't NECESSARILY mean all your other relationships are shattered, but they definitely aren't gonna be what they used to be. maybe this is just from personal experience (not actually me, but people around me) but i tend to witness this kinda shit more often than not, so i figured it was worth wasting some time and space (which are actually the same thing) on.
but i'm doing alright, thanks for asking everyone. and by the way, don't be so confusing...
so i can't really tell if i've said a lot so far or not, and i should say something clever to follow that statement with, but i can't think of anything. but in the process of not knowing what to say, i'm actually writing more, which in essence diminishes the idea that i don't know how much has really been said to begin with. so i may not know exactly how much i've said, but at least i know that i've said more via telling you that i'm not sure how much i've said.
and now i have something to say....
i noticed that i've said too much, so i am going to stop. but not just flat out stop, i'm gonna end the post and then continue with a bunch of nonsense and random thoughts that i feel the need to exploit to everyone...sounds familiar right? truly, the next part of this post will be no different from the rest of it. consider this and interlude, or an intermission. go get some coffee, try and make that barista at starbucks remember your name. go outside and look at the dopeness of everything, instead of the wackness. tell me how it is, tell me how the big black guy is doing. go fish for koi with Manu Li from Warm Brew, or make friends with the cute chick who just moved in next door. i feel like that nickelodeon ad that encourages kids to be active and go outside and play. it's like, your watching TV, being told to go outside. but really, Nick wants you to keep watching iCarly, but the man is paying them to say that. so like, you 5 people (or was it 4?) who are reading this, i would wish for you to continue reading. but you should also do what i tell you to do, because my word is so authoritative.
people say all good things must come to an end, and since this blog is not good, that must mean it doesn't have to end. haha, sucks for you guys...
for all of the Warm Brew fans who may come across this, our album is still alive. it is titled "Natural Spirit" and it is 15 songs in total, many of them have not been previously released, and all of them have been mixed and mastered to the best of our abilities. we hope it hasn't been too long, we feel it's been worth the wait. we're just puttin the cinnamon on top of the latte right now, so to speak. thank you for all the love and support, we came up quick so its hard to follow up with a perfect product right away. but it's very close.
i feel like giving a speech that would normally be reserved for someone who just won an Oscar. there are people to acknowledge and thanks to be given. but you don't need praise, that's just selfish. many of you know who you are and what you have done, and that is all that matters.
so thank you to everyone, and enjoy...
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my most recent project:: http://www.mediafire.com/?zwkwojykzhj
it's a 48 minute mixtape of mostly mellow music, but people seem to love it. so check it if you haven't already, download it and enjoy...
-espy
